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It's amazing how you left me with so many memories that never fail to make my heart race.. makes me want to go back to those days when you were still here.. and makes me willing to wait a little bit more. |
I always say that I AM CONTENT WITH BEING ALONE.
The truth is, I’m tired of it ever since. I have been waiting. But waiting for something undetermined. I really really don’t know what is making me feel this way. But I know, deep within, there is something missing. An unknown missing part of myself, which until now, even I can’t figure it out for myself.
I have committed myself to the thought of IMPOSSIBILITIES. Always thinking that all the things that I wanted, all the men that I have learned to love, the circumstances I want to happen… are all good as a STAR. Distant. Unreachable. And I can only keep on staring at them, but will not be able to have them in my hands, or even reach one of them.
All my friends say, EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE. But why I cannot make myself believe in it?
This is the very thing that I want to change in my life.
I want to start learning to believe.
Maybe, all I need is to trust a little more.
I am so sorry for feeling this way. And for losing my faith in YOU. Please help have my faith back.