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‎”I studied but I never topped, but today, the topnotchers of the Universities all over the world are my employees” - Bill Gates

I’ve read this early this morning, and it made me realize that if something is meant to happen, IT WILL HAPPEN NO MATTER WHAT.

When I heard about the WOW award — and being the pessimistic person that I am — I had a doubt. A doubt if I was really the one to receive it. 

It’s not that I am comparing myself to others, it’s just that.. I know myself. I know my capabilities, my limitations. Ever since, I don’t trust myself to be enough in anything. I’ve always had this doubt if I can do this or that.. that’s how I am. 

Thinking of the situations.. 

Yes, I am not the Top Performer for that month, but the award was given to me. I got it because the top performer lacked one requirement to be qualified, which is what I’ve got to get in to the selection. When I came to realize this, I just thought, “It was really meant for me then.” 

I am not applying this realization just for this award. It applies in everything. 

I received lots of rejection before, which had make me feel worthless. But as time goes by, as every circumstance is revealed, I am realizing that I am in the right place. He brought me here for this, is His plan for me. And I don’t think I have the right to oppose His them.

God really works in mysterious ways.